About a year ago, I became really serious about changing an aspect of myself: my weight. I had begun to see photos posted of me from my first Master's graduation in which I honestly didn't even recognize myself. I knew I was in there somewhere, but I certainly didn't see myself as that chubby girl in all the photos. After spending my final summer at Lutherlyn as Crafts Director, I focused rather seriously on this project amidst the vast other life changes that were happening around me (aka: the move to Indiana, Library School, etc.)
It proved to be one of the most challenging and rewarding years of my life. I'm not saying it was easy. Or always healthy. In fact, there were large periods when it probably wasn't healthy at all. But I know, looking back, that I have vastly improved one of my three core attributes (my body), whilst continuing to nurture another (my mind).
With this chapter of change coming to a close, as I am happily within a health BMI and physical condition, although I'd like to start exercising more so that I can eat more delicious Indian food, I'd like to focus on the other area of my life that's a bit lacking. My emotional health. It's been a rough year. My uncle passed away in a motorcycle accident. I gained and lost a relationship. My cat died. I moved seven hours away from home for the first time. I worried about the future.
Now the future is here. Nothing is permanent. In fact, as I sit here, at Interlochen (remember the internship I mentioned in an earlier post?), I'm waiting for the results of several job interviews and applications -- anxiously hoping for the pieces to fall into place. That's not to say I don't have a back-up plan, because every planner does.. but things are just very.. nebulous at present. It's hard to put myself at ease.
That's what this year is about. Transition or not. Permanency or not. I am going to spend the year working on finding out what makes me happy. Really happy. I will continue to nurture my mind, because I won't be happy without that aspect, but I think this year is about just breathing. Being. Becoming an adult. Being responsible. Reading as many books as I can. Experiencing all that I can.
So shortly I'll release a new Bloomington Bucket List which will likely be littered with personal wellness things like "Start going to Yoga class," "Meditate," "Cook with fresh vegetables" and "Read outside whenever possible." (Oh.. and eat ALL THE INDIAN FOOD.) But this year.. this is going to be good. And like I said at the start of this blog:
Life is made up of moments. I want to remember the good ones.
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